That Once Bright Lamp

Divorce changes everything!
Time changes nothing...
As the memories flood into my mind
I miss the sound of your voice,
the passion in your eyes, the stories of our life
and just being in your presence.
So no, time changes nothing,
but the hurt still resides deep inside me,
though it seems to fade minutely with each passing day
and the tears flow a little less frequently.
I miss you as much today
as I did the day we parted
in that stark and lifeless courtroom.
Can you still hear me somewhere out there
In the recesses of your broken heart?
Can you see my face grown long and dim with despair?
Please know that I am still here amongst the living,
for God knows I have longed for death to take me.
But I know that there are greater causes for living
and my spirit reaches out for meaning
amidst the ashes and ruin of a former life.
Where has that once bright lamp gone?
And so like the phoenix rising,
I will reappear in some distant place
in brighter days and happier space
alongside the love of my life!
I miss you!

- D.A. Wittler 2014